I respectfully continue adding my comments in italics after each of Brianna’s 18 points.
18 Signs You Are Experiencing A Dark Night Of The Soul, Otherwise Known As An Existential Crisis Avatar
By Brianna Wiest
Updated September 15, 2019 God & Man Yet and Started
4. YOU BEGIN TO DESIRE TO IMPRESS PEOPLE LESS AND TO TRULY CONNECT WITH THEM MORE:
You realize that there are two ways of interacting with people: trying to get their approval by being "better" than them, or trying to connect with them genuinely.
Trying to impress people into liking you will always leave you feeling empty.
It's a very pervasive mechanism the ego uses to soothe itself when the fear of truly being seen by another person arises.
Blessed with being a good athlete, intelligent, possessing soothing rhetorical skills and some say good-looking since I was a child, I was always trying to gain people’s approval by beating them and being the nice-nice “Golden Boy.”
Working in sales & marketing for almost 50 years, I always did my best to be “likable” so that I could earn my customers approval and get that purchase order.
My ego was so out of control I would do anything ~ except illegal, immoral and unethical actions to make people like me even if I did not like them.
It had to do with my control drama of being better than them.
Having also totally decluttered my social life resulting in being blessed with only two genuine relationships ~ my wife Christine and my daughter Alexandra, my existence has been so much simplified from my former “Cheers” type days where “everyone knew my name.”
Having worked on myself extensively over the last several years, the me that people see NOW is the real deal.
I really don’t care anymore if people like me as I really am ~ all I seek is mutual respect in interactions.
5. YOU BEGIN TO RESONATE WITH EASTERN PHILOSOPHIES & YOUR INHERENT DEEP CORE SPIRITUAL BELIEFS:
The fear-based system in which you beg for mercy just isn't cutting it anymore.
Instead, you're interested in learning how to harness your mind and awaken to your own power - for your own healing, and for other people's.
My Roman Catholicism covered extensively in my first book “My Zig~Zag To Healing”, I was completely mind controlled by the fear, shame and guilt that this church preached and imposed for 50 years.
Free now since 2002, my spirituality has exponentially grown and I am actively working daily on reprogramming my subconscious that controls 95% of my mind.
Very respectful of The Buddha and his philosophies having to do with compassion and not craving, the Christian "Book of Tomas" was purposely DELETED from the Bible in 325 A.D.
The Emperor Diocletian and the greedy mind controlling Catholic bishops at the Council of Nicaea in Constantinople, abhorred and feared that the Book of Tomas contained the actual teachings of Christ Yeshua on how to powerfully pray 100% faith-based in Divine Mind and preternaturally co-manifest our heart’s desires.
Having learned to heal myself spiritually, mentally, emotionally as well as physically, my purposeful power prayers are testimonially healing other people in the fourth dimension ~ where time and place are not factors.
Re-routing mentally the energy of negative thoughts into positive ones for others, the boomerang effect of raining negativity on myself has totally disappeared.
T'was time to say goodbye to me old self and hello to the real me.