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I respectfully add my comments in italics after each of Brianna’s 18 points.

18 Signs You Are Experiencing A Dark Night Of The Soul, Otherwise Known As An Existential Crisis Avatar

By Brianna Wiest

Updated September 15, 2019 God & Man Yet and Started


When you're going through your dark night of the soul, a part of you IS dying.

You're becoming much more aware of your ego and how it has been controlling the quality of your life.

Graced that very early on I lost my fear of dying because I knew that there was a lot more to existence than this temporal world, it was the reason and blessing that I had no problem jumping out of a plane at 13,500 feet, zip-lining over 1000 meter gorges and boogie-boarding waves so powerful that they literally kicked me way up in the air.

Always wanting to look my very best and assure that every strand of hair was in place and that my Pancho Villa mustache was perfectly combed and aligned, my rearview mirror continued being my best friend even after I put down my cocaine spoon and vial forever in the mid-80s.

Very much aware of the controlling ~ sometimes demonic grip of the ego, I decided long time ago to eliminate the pervasive stress of constantly stopping to look at myself in the mirror, except for only one time when I finished dressing in the morning.

During my entire ten year relationship with Christine, I quite occasionally kid around by telling her “I am dying.” Her Three Stooges type response is always “not today, Al.”


When you really suffer, you become able to empathize with what actual pain is.

Beforehand, seeing movies with war scenes and dying siblings and positive cancer tests were sad, but didn't really resonate with you.

Now, you are starting to really feel what refugees and people stuck in war-torn countries and those who are dying of illnesses and can't afford better treatment must be experiencing.

Taught as a young boy in Roman Catholic grammar school in San Francisco the plight of the African babies starving to death, I respectlessly stole money from my mom’s purse to contribute to their care.

And of course after going to confession and admitting my sin, the priest ordered me to say 10 Our Fathers and 10 Hail Marys to be "forgiven." Thinking back, really ~ by who?

Always admonished by the nuns as well as my parents to be part of “the clean plate club” because many others in the world did not have enough to eat, I learned and appreciated at a very early age the tremendous blessing that I was born into.

After my White Knight, my feelings of compassion and empathy for my fellow humans that are sleeping literally on sidewalks in Frankfurt’s winter cold and do not know the soothing exhilaration of a hot shower has overwhelmingly increased.

Knowing that the cures for cancer and juvenile diabetes were discovered long, long time ago and that Big Pharma blocks their use, due to the hundreds of billions of dollars that just these two diseases lines their pockets with.

As a collective humankind, we must combat the powers that should not be and refuse to be interned in concentration "infected" camps, because of eugenicist Bill Gates' 2006 patented virus and ensuing 5G activated patented 2015 vaccine.

Stand up, declare and claim what is rightfully yours!